A few years back I decided that I was going to try ice skating! I’ve never really mastered regular skates but I was determined to try it. I was very excited because it was an outdoor rink and so beautiful. I eagerly got my skates and went straight to the ice rink. As soon as my foot touched the ice it was a bit harder than I expected! The ice was full of gashes and my skates would stop and stall which caused me to wobble trying to find my balance.

I made it around a couple of times holding the rails. Then I got more courage as I would push myself off the rail and find the nearest open rail across the way. To my surprise as I pushed off I hit a deep gash on the ice and my skates stalled. I had two choices keep moving forward or reach backwards for the rail. It felt like moving forward was too scary so I reached back and fell! I realize that if I just pushed forward I would have made it safely.

How many times in our lives does this happen. The fear of the unknown and moving forward is so scary that we want to clutch onto what doesn’t serve us anymore. This could be an analogy for everything in life like unhappy careers, stale relationships, old wounds, etc…

I know that for me surrendering at this moment of my life is imperative! I’m back on that ice rink. However, this time it’s not an ice rink but my marriage separation and I can’t reach back because of a false sense of safety. I can’t hide from what I feel. I want more… I’m living boldly and no matter how much I lose balance I keep moving forward. So I surrender what was and be open for what will be.

If I just breathe

Let it fill the space between

I’ll know everything is alright

Breathe

Well it’s all so overrated

In not saying how you feel

So you end up watching chances fade

And wondering what’s real

🎶Breathe – Michelle Branch